Ain't no way I'm gonna be able to write this thing every day. Heck NO! Not in the way I would want to anyway, not in a reflective, non tell-you-what-i-did-that-day kind of way! Unless I carve out that kind of time (which is totally doable, if I choose to do it,) it ain't gonna happen. And maybe it doesn't need to? Or maybe it does and I just have to figure out the hows. I ain't no morning person, oh honey. It took me an hour to wake up from a flippin nap. I realized today that I shouldn't have been going on and on about my long nap to my friend with a 4 1/2 month old, but there you go, that's me. Mornings are hard for me. And now that I have a husband who goes to bed, it just feel wrong to stay up till 3am. So that puts us in the couple important times a week category, or the brief mention thing a day, or somewhere in between.
So here's a thought from the weekend that I don't want to be forgotten.
Saturday, Dan and I shot a pilot for a web series that Dan wrote for us. And here is something I believe. It doesn't even have to be good, it just has to be done. And I think it might even have some good in there. Let us worry about good later. We did it. He's been writing for months, been taking time and putting it into this project. He's not a self proclaimed writer. It's not his passion or training. But he wanted to do this for us. To give us a project that we could do together, that would show us off in the way we want to be seen. And he did it. He went to Starbucks a lot, left home and sat and focused. We had hard and awkward work sessions. I got scared a lot. I got overwhelmed. We scheduled and rescheduled. Did I mention there is a baby in the script? We got a baby. No one is gong to do it for you, no one is going to produce this for you. So we did it. And our director was awesome, brought the camera equipment. Some friends let us borrow their apartment, and I didn't know our characters were cool until we had the location set. Our characters are going to be thought of as super cool cause of the great 'set.' Dan even asked a couple of friends to help, and those friends said yes(!)!!! Imagine that! We had our baby and her mama on set and the baby did great! We did great! I only had a tiny melt down (threw a tiny fit, whatever you want to call it, cause I was scared) and we moved on, through the fear and got it done. We did that. And then we went to two birthday parties. My favorite part of the day was the nap in between. I told you I like to sleep. But that kind of sleep is deserved. It's not running from the fear, its facing it, exhausting yourself and resting up, ready to celebrate.
And now I am going to go to bed and then try to wake up in the morning.
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